MY SPILLED CUP OF TEA.

If I'm so attached to the past is because the future doesn't offer me anything better. Everything has been bumps. As fast as they arrived, they left. When you have nothing, you can only wait. You can't dream about something you don't know. Reality is always one step ahead, on your heels. Life is a constant learning experience, and I know I'll die without having understood anything.

Revenge. Why is everybody looking for revenge? Why cannot people solve all their problems talking? Why everybody thinks that shout somebody, hurt somebody is the best solution? Why to scare someone is better than asking for explanations? Forgiveness is the best solution, we can't expect to solve a problem hurting someone, we are all human. We all make mistakes. We've all done something stupid without realizing it, and when we wanted to fix it was too late. Revenge won't lead us to serenity, won't lead us to justice, won't lead us to anything. Things won't be solved with revenge, only will worsen.

You don't understand me, you can't understand me. I've been so much time with this pain inside, don't even try to fix me. It all started a few years ago, many comments which attacked me, oh I repeat you guys, it's not your fault.  I'm against myself.  You only hurt me with your argues, your conclusions... I'm alright, I can only be saved by myself. I know I'm driving without control, in a way with many drivers, is just that I can't stop right now. Too many times hidding myself, trying to be the good girl you always wanted to be, I'm not like them, I'm just unfixable.