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En esta sierra no hay olivos.

El sol, bien es sabido, que es el juez implacable, ¿por qué esta vez es él el que gira en torno a este insulso asteroide? Fuerza curiosa la del sol, arrebatadora, y cómo no, encarnizado si no te adaptas a él. Pero hoy el viento ruge más feroz mente, y han sido el replicar de mis pasos los que han detenido tu ritmo, tu estrepitosa figura me ha hecho temblar en más de una ocasión, porque los puñales se clavan en el pecho, no en la espalda. ¿Por qué giras en torno a mi? Siquiera seguimos el mismo rastro. ¿Por qué me balanceas? Irregular y tetorcida es tu base, al igual que tus ramas. Pero es el junco el que soporta las peores ventiscas. Abandona tu carnicería, no tengo tiempo para más espigas, no queda terreno para olivos, no de los que se reproducen como zarzas.
Buenas tardes, en primer lugar he de decir que estoy muy perdida en esto de blogger, llevo desde tercero de la eso abriendo blogs y desahogándome un poquito en ellos y sigo sin sacar lo mejor de mí. Nada más entrar en mi cuenta he visto que tenía una notificación de un nuevo comentario, en él Alba Martín cuyo blog es http://perfectoesaburrido.blogspot.com.es/ me nomina a contestar algunas preguntas. Bueno, como no tengo tampoco nada mejor que hacer, allá vamos. 1.¿Tipo de música?  De todo un poco. EXCEPTO DUBSTEP, ELECTROLATINO, MÚSICA DE PACHANGUEO Y DERIVADOS. 2.¿Prefieres leer o ver la película? Leer, en la película se pierden muchos detalles. 3.¿Cuál es el libro que más te ha gustado? De los que posiblemente hayas leído. Puffff... Esta es la única pregunta que no sé contestar, no puedo elegir ninguno. 4.¿Cantas o bailas? Ninguna de las dos cosas, canto horriblemente mal y bailo aún peor. 5.¿Te gustaría escribir un libro? ¿De qué lo escribirías? Empecé a escribir un...

24J - When I started regretting every decision I took.

If I'm so attached to the past is because the future doesn't offer me anything better. Everything has been bumps. As fast as they arrived, they left. When you have nothing, you can only wait. You can't dream about something you don't know. Reality is always one step ahead, on your heels. Life is a constant learning experience, and I know I'll die without having understood anything.

15J - The first time I shocked in pain.

Revenge. Why is everybody looking for revenge? Why cannot people solve all their problems talking? Why everybody thinks that shout somebody, hurt somebody is the best solution? Why to scare someone is better than asking for explanations? Forgiveness is the best solution, we can't expect to solve a problem hurting someone, we are all human. We all make mistakes. We've all done something stupid without realizing it, and when we wanted to fix it was too late. Revenge won't lead us to serenity, won't lead us to justice, won't lead us to anything. Things won't be solved with revenge, only will worsen.

18D - Me not talking to my parents

You don't understand me, you can't understand me. I've been so much time with this pain inside, don't even try to fix me. It all started a few years ago, many comments which attacked me, oh I repeat you guys, it's not your fault.  I'm against myself.  You only hurt me with your argues, your conclusions... I'm alright, I can only be saved by myself. I know I'm driving without control, in a way with many drivers, is just that I can't stop right now. Too many times hidding myself, trying to be the good girl you always wanted to be, I'm not like them, I'm just unfixable.

22N - Oh, welcome anxiety.

Everything's changing. Makeup wont change myself. I don't wanna be her, I'm sick of overthink. I see my reflection wherever I go. I know some people feels as I do. I know how I came in, but I don't know how to come out. Pain is growing, fear is holding me. So many fights inside I can't deal with. I'm just writing some feelings, to try to bring them down. I'm not looking for compassion, I don't hope you to understand me. Trying to expel  my demons, writing to relieve.

The first time I fell in love and I fell out of love.

And although it was hard to admit, she missed him. Occasionally he went through her head, all those memories, and that end. She was convinced that he didn't care, that didn't hurt ... how wrong she was. Every memory was digging thorns in her heart. And what hurts the most was thinking that she wouldn't have been so important for him. This wall that she  had built wasn't so tough as she thought.   Out of sight, out of mind. But what if he wasn't still out? Maybe she wasn't ready to say goodbye.  You still hurt me. And you'll hurt for a while.